Cannot believe I’m going to be a mommy to a little baby boy! Future mother in law from hell in the making from the second I found out I’m having a boy. I really want him to be a momma’s boy too. Even though I was so against that when I met Michael and had to literally cut the umbilical cord he still had between him and his mother, things have changed now. ahahhaha (so evil) You can’t understand how in love I am with him already!!! Obsessed!!!! I’ve always seen myself with two boys but I totally thought I was going to have a girl this time. Anyone I’ve spoken to about my symptoms said they had the same with their girls. Come to think of it, almost every single one of my friends or just random moms I’ve spoken to all have girls! Another reason why I thought that something maybe in the air. When I first got pregnant I had dreams about a baby girl so I was almost positive we were having one. A boy totally came as a shock! To be honest I was so fearful of having a girl because of the one I was. I pushed my limits and was a huge rebel. Karma would have kicked my ass hard! Everyone at the gender reveal party who thought it was a girl secretly wanted a boy and when it came down to cutting the cake my dad decided to make a little friendly-hey- no- pressure announcement. “Let’s all be honest here, we may have written a girl but every one of us really wants it to be a boy!” Everyone agrees… then he proceeds to say… “Ok, cut the cake!” Yeah sure, I can’t even see the damn cake or knife I’m holding under all this pressure. Honestly, I haven’t been that nervous for a while, I felt like fainting I was so excited slash nervous. I would be so happy with either! Seriously my dream of becoming a mother has taken over my ability to dream of anything else for a while now, that I wouldn’t give a shit if I gave birth to a bird at this point. I just want to be a mom… and everyone knows how much I hate birds! I just pray he is healthy and everything Michael… he is the most beautiful human being ever created and now we are in the process of giving life to his mini me. Fingers crossed he isn’t anything Eiman. Ugh, I die. <3 E.