The irony… but yesterday was really a day from hell for me. I was running on ZERO sleep… I mean I didn’t even get 15 minutes of shut eye! My belly itching has been so intense, apparently few women get it and I just happen to be one of them… NO SHIT?! I’m honestly fearful of getting an epidural or anything because so far throughout this whole pregnancy I have been that one percent in everything. With the belly itching there is nothing that I can do except take Benadryl and put Caladryl cream along with all my concoctions of oils and butters. Nothing helps, not even a little except for maybe the Caladryl for a short period of time. I don’t want to itch but I have to so I itch with my fingers and not my nails. So far no stretch marks and I am 8 months preggo, it would suck to get them now in the last few weeks. Along with no sleep because of the belly itching I had a really shitty day, most likely because I was already wired, on edge and super emotional from lack of rest. Everything was magnified by 100! My hips are hurting, leg cramps, heartburn, I’m just all in all miserable now oh and I had comments by extremist Muslim people made attacking my lifestyle…. which REALLY FUCKING PISSED ME OFF. Unfortunately my name attracts those types of close minded people that I personally want nothing to do with. Anyway, yesterday feeling stressed and in pain I broke down, crying hysterically to the point that I could not breathe AKA I had an anxiety attack. I felt even worst because it’s really the first time I’ve broken down in my pregnancy and at the same time this is what I’ve been wanting and fighting to have for 3 years now and now I’m complaining?! Thankfully Michael was with me and he brought me back to my senses with love and so much kindness. Honestly I don’t know how I got so lucky with him. Now I’m going to brag, I told myself I wouldn’t but shit here it goes…..He brings me breakfast in bed every single morning since I’ve gotten pregnant, has cooked me all my home made meals from lunch to dinner, cleans the house, takes care of hosting our friends and guests, does the grocery shopping, has given me all the shots and meds I’ve needed to sustain this pregnancy, cleans up after my throw up which has been every day for 5 months straight (and surprisingly has picked back up again… ugh.) single handily put our new home together, and has been the most patient and loving husband throughout this high risk pregnancy. On top of all that he still manages to run our company like a bad ass boss and handle all our business! I don’t know what I did in life to deserve that… I don’t. Makes me want to cry when I look at him doing everything so naturally and he throws me back a huge smile on his face with the most sincere eyes I have ever come in contact with. I am truly blessed and if everything in life went bad as long as I have this man by my side I would still see life as beautiful. TI AMO AMORE!!!!!!! <3 E.
Shout out- also to my sisters and a few of my best girl friends who have been right by Michael’s side helping me out and I could never thank you guys enough! Just wait until baby is born and I am back to my normal self again… I will find a way to repay you. <3
Wearing Happiness over size dress, Alexander Wang shoes, hat.